Mom Pens Powerful Post About Pregnancy After Miscarriage: ‘I Question Everything’

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Lifestyle blogger Allie Boss is nine weeks pregnant with her second child. “Everything looks good so far,” she tells Us Weekly. But after losing two babies in two years, the 26-year-old has understandably been struggling with anxiety. “There’s always this voice saying, ‘What if something happens? What if today’s the last day?’” says Boss. “When I go to the bathroom I’m just waiting to see blood.”

Pregnancy after miscarriage(s) can be a hard/weird thing. There’s emotions that come along with it that you never expected. After losing 2 babies I question everything. Is that pain normal, why don’t I feel sick, is the baby growing right? It’s hard being pregnant after loss. It’s hard being pregnant normally. I think it’s common to questions symptoms. But it’s 100xs worse after loss. Times I get anxiety of losing another. Times I questions if this baby is going to grow full term. But I’ve found peace in Gods plans. I’m learning to lean on him when I’m anxious. I’m learning to lean on him when I question. I’m learning to lean on him with trust. Pregnancy after loss is scary. I questioned if we shared too early because what if something happened again? But here I am 8 weeks 5 days and I’m not going to hide it. You should never feel you have to hide a baby.. a precious life.. until after the first trimester. I want to celebrate everyday I carry this baby. Heaven forbid something happens. I’m going to celebrate, share and savor every single day. Because this baby deserves it. Because I’m growing a precious longed for, prayed for and wanted life inside of me and that deserves to be celebrated from day one

source;http://www.usmagazine.com/

 

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